Weather the storm. It’s an idiom I bloody love and one we are all riding right now. My husband got made redundant last week. It’s hit us hard. Financially as you can imagine, it’s really very worrying, short term it’ll be ok because best foot forward and all that, but long term, not sure what’s going to happen as COVID-19 has impacted on everything. A job means financial security, a sense of belonging and self-worth, a place in society, and when you’re 41 these things mean a lot. We keep wondering, will it be a nightmare when he applies for jobs that potentially hundreds of others in the same boat are also doing?
The stress and worry it’s created are sidelines to what’s happening right now with the Covid-19 pandemic. We are privileged because we have a house, can afford to use our garden to grow food, we can buy food, we have moderate savings, but the impact it’s had on our relationship is there, like the elephant in the room. When that sole income is lost due to redundancy coupled with the fact we have young children to bring up – the pressure is even greater.
So what do we do now? We can’t go out, no one is employing and according to the Financial Times we are heading for a deep recession, worse than in 2008. Our economy is grinding to a halt. Debt could be looming, my husbands self esteem has taken a massive knock (he’s a Leo and a proud man!) so living inside for the next few months will be testing. Cue my face contorting with worry and anxiety.
I had been on the road to launching a project I’ve been working on for the last 4/5 months but that will have to wait, it is all about waste and plastic pollution which is the last thing on peoples minds. Self employment will have to wait rather than be shelved! I think we will all be good at waiting after this is all over. Right now I am hunkering down to keep my family happy and healthy, protected and provided for in the hope that next year we will take a leap to travel at every opportunity we can. Covid-19 has taught me a lesson, I don’t do enough to throw caution to the wind. to experience life. I did before I had children but haven’t since… and I want to change that…
“20 years from now you will be more disappointed by the things you didn’t do than the ones you did. So, throw off the bowlines and sail away from the safe harbour. Catch the trade winds in your sail. Explore…Dream…Discover…” Mark Twain